stole this from the facebook fanpage of Jim Beaver Monday, Mar 22 2010 

I absolutely adore Jim Beaver.  He’s an amazing actor and author and after reading his book I decided he should adopt me.  His words have a way of moving me that’s beyond any song.  I respect him and think he’d be wonderful friend to have.  Anyway, I stole this from his facebook page.

Okay, here’s the proposition: It’s your last day on earth. You get the following choices:

1. Last meal ever – a BLT with avocado sandwich with a side of pickles and chips

2. Last DVD to watch – Rent Live on broadway

3. One person outside your family (living or dead) to talk to – Katherine Moennig

4. Last song to hear – Westlife’s Footloose

5. Last words. (stole this answer from Mr. Beaver)   “But I come back to life next season, right?”

11:55 pm Tuesday, Mar 9 2010 

So here I sit in bed at 11:55 on a Monday night.  I have nothing to do tomorrow so do I really need to go to sleep?  Friday I lost my job, which I saw coming.  I was given an account several months ago and repeatedly asked to be taken off of this account as I knew it was driving my work quality down.  At one point they actually took me off of it but immediately started sending me work from it.  I KNEW without a doubt that my work was horrible on it and yet they never offered any form of feedback, thereby making it impossible for me to improve the quality of the work.  I was already applying and actually submitted two applications while on the phone with my former boss as she was telling me I was done.  I told her that I was fine with it and that I put blame on the fact there was a severe lack of open communication on both ends.  I will find what I am meant to find and in the meantime I will be working on writing.  I will be testing for a position with a major MT company this week but usually that’s all just a huge waiting game.  I’m hoping to find a job within 2 weeks but that’s always a bit iffy with MT jobs.

As for weight loss, I did lose 2.2 pounds this last week. 

Here comes my cat trying to climb in front of the laptop so that I can pet her instead of type.  She’s quite offended I am ignoring her 🙂

Books 6 and 7 Friday, Feb 26 2010 

I am in the midst of book 8 and hopefully will have finished it by Sunday which would be 8 books in the month of February.  I currently have 20 books on my shelf and will not be counting cookbooks which I don’t necessarily read all of otherwise I’d count the cookbook I looked entirely through today but didn’t read all recipes as I wouldn’t be interested in a lot of them.

Book 6 was “Hate List” by Jennifer Brown.  I admit this one stuck with me and still is with me and was such a powerful book.  I confess I was hormonal at the time and therefore it made me emotional.  The story is about Valerie.  Her and her boyfriend have long been outcasts and together create the Hate List.  She has no idea how seriously he took the list until the day he opened fire in the Commons at their school.  She is shot just before he shoots himself.  A few months later she goes back to the same school to finish out her senior year.  The story itself is mixed with ‘articles’ from the time of the shooting.  It’s a wonderful book and far exceeded my expectations.  I will read it again one day.

Book 7 is “Blood Memories” by Barb Hendee.  I am not sure how I feel about this one.  It was a quick read and I’ll read the sequel as my 9th book but I’m not sure I really enjoyed it.  Things happened with little or no explanation which bothers me.  I hope those things will be better explained in book 2 of the series.  I will copy the synopsis from amazon so you can judge for yourself.  “Eleisha, a vampire, is far older than she looks-and makes men yearn to care for her. Then she usually kills them, since self-preservation comes first. So when an old vampire friend kills himself, Eleisha is shocked. And what she finds in his home shows how world-weary he had become- hoarding corpses and keeping records of vampires’ actual names and addresses. Now the police know who Eleisha is, and more alarmingly, what she is. But she soon realizes that being known may have its uses-even if it puts her and her kind at risk…”

Book 8 is Dark Light by Jayne Castle and it is a part of a series I’ve been reading.  I will finish that this weekend I am hopeful.

figuring things out Thursday, Feb 25 2010 

This week has been abnormal.  First things first I’ve been sick.  I don’t know what’s wrong but I just don’t feel well.  I’ve been coughing and my throat hurts and my chest hurts and it is improving but I’m not 100% and will worry about my fitness when I get better.  There is absolutely no way I could exercise at this moment.  I did sign up for an email plan via about.com.  It’s called 12 weeks to weight loss and once a week I’ll get an email that will include links for the week.  Day 1 is concentrating on cardio and I think I’ll probably start Monday.  I have to go past my gym that afternoon so maybe I’ll just stop and exercise and then if I take the kids back for their class on Monday evening I could just swim to relax.  We’ll see.

Also starting next week my mom’s collab channel will begin.  I don’t have the link at this moment but will definitely be sharing that soon.  I’m really excited about it.  I think I found a great group of ladies to take part.  Nancy, Mariann, Dawn and Danielle…I’m really looking forward to getting to know the 4 of them and seeing what happens.

And with my writing…I’d been planning out this whole idea for the faerie story and it just never seemed to feel 100% right.  The other day I put some thought into changing the story from an adult story to a YA story and it began to feel right.  I’m really excited.  Maybe this will be the one that I finally finish.  I still have every intention of finishing the WIP with Cadence and Dean but at this moment I am not really prepared to do that and so for now I think I’ll set that to the side.

All these things going on.  I’m so incredibly excited.

February is a bust Friday, Feb 19 2010 

So my intention for February was to work out 20 times, blog 10, eat better, no pop, sleep better.  Have I accomplished what I set out to do?  NO

I failed at my plan and I think I know why.  I think I got ahead of myself and then I set myself up to fail.  I tried to be so good and I overanalyzed and let things bother me to the point that when I did mess up the first time I was so bothered by it that I just automatically knew I’d failed and so there couldn’t possibly be a way to fix it or catch up and then it all fell apart entirely.  Even my work schedule is off because of it.  So instead of planning a month or 21 day challenge I’m going to do 3 day challenges with myself.  If I fail I didn’t blow it I can start again the next day.

Tired so this is very short.

Books 1-5 Wednesday, Feb 17 2010 

So I’ve set myself a goal to read 150 books in a 1 year period that began on February 1, 2010.  I’m midway through book 6 right now but we’ll get to that one later.  I will not post long drawn out reviews of them but I will give

Book 1 is “I heart you, you haunt me” by Lisa Schroeder.  It’s a short book, 240 pages, written in verse.  Ava’s boyfriend Jackson was a daredevil who takes a dare that leaves him dead and Ava finds herself haunted by him as she tries to move on with living.  I am not typically a fan of books written in verse but I enjoyed this one.  It was a sweet and sad book.  It is YA but I find myself drawn to YA books anyway.

Book 2:  “Gone” by Michael Grant.  This book is quite intense.  I typically do not read books by men but when I do I love them.  This book starts with the disappearance of everyone over the age of 15.  Kids sitting in school listening to teachers who suddenly poof out of existence, being a passenger in a vehicle that suddenly has no driver.  Animals begin to mutate and kids show signs of having their own powers.  It’s a rather long book at 576 pages but I found it worth the read if you can handle a little darker YA fiction.

Book 3:  “Real Murders” by Charlaine Harris.  This book is part of the Aurora Teagarden series by Charlaine Harris.  It is book 1 in the series and tells of a series of murders designed to look like well known murders, like the crimes of Lizzie Borden.  I am not sure I will continue with this book series which is a shame because I have loved everything else I’ve read by Charlaine Harris previously.

Book 4: “Silver Master” by Jayne Castle.  This book is part of a series of books I’ve read by Jayne Castle (pseudonym for Jayne Anne Krentz) set in an alternate universe called Harmony.  It is a romance novel with some thriller aspect to it.  I enjoy the series very much and the next one in the series “Dark Light” is also on my shelf waiting to be read.

Book 5: “Hunger” by Michael Grant.  This is the second book in the series that begins with Gone.  The most I will say is that 3 months have gone by since the events of book 1 and food is running out.  It was darker and took me longer to read than book 1.  This is 608 pages but well worth the read.  The third book in the series, slated to be a 6 part series, is due out in May.

I am about halfway through the book “Hate List: A Novel” by Jennifer Brown.  I’ll tell you all about it later.  I will say that I am enjoying it far more than I ever thought I could possibly like it.

contest entry from December Monday, Feb 15 2010 

I entered a short story contest hosted by the author Michelle Rowen. I did not place in the top 5 but that is okay. This was the first time I ever submitted any of my writing for anything.

A little background on the story is that this takes place in the 1950s and is intended to serve as a prologue for a MS that is still in the plotting stages. When this contest cropped up it seemed like the perfect time to write this part out. I am bad with titles so I played with a Christmas Song as the contest did.

Have Yourself a Faerie Little Christmas

Deep in an Irish forest snow fell on the roof of Finn’s treetop home. He was lost in thoughts of the human girl he’d met while on his rompu saol, the journey all faerie youth take to make sure they are walking the path they were meant for. Finn had returned three weeks prior and every day that he was home he missed her more. He’d met her his first night in Dublin. He had been so entranced by the lights and sounds that he didn’t notice the beautiful girl step from the shop and into his path until he’d knocked her flat.

“Ouch!” said the beauty. “Watch where you’re walking!”

“My apologies, my lady,” Finn apologized. “Are you hurt?”

He held his hand out to assist her and she looked up at him, taking his hand. She quickly lost her tongue for he was gorgeous. After she was on her feet she realized that he stood at least two heads taller than her 5 foot 6 inch frame and he looked a lot like the American movie star Paul Newman but darker, a stark contrast to her fair skin and red hair.

He held tightly to her hand and raised it to his lips in apology.

“I am not hurt.”

“May I have your name?” He inquired.

“I’m Maggie Byrne and who might you be?”

He stopped short, remembering he couldn’t give his true name or he’d lose his magic forever. “My name is Simon Fay. I’m new to Dublin. Could I possibly trouble you to show me around?”

Every spare moment of the next six weeks were spent together. During the day Maggie worked in a bakery to earn money for Christmas and Finn spent his days learning of the human world. He found it to be far more magical than anything he’d ever seen at home. In the evenings they had long talks, sharing their hopes, dreams and future plans.

It was little wonder that within their first few weeks together Finn and Maggie had fallen deeply in love. Finn was no longer sure that returning home was what he wanted to do and often considered giving Maggie his true name, thereby taking his magic.

On the last night of his rompu saol he and Maggie enjoyed a quiet dinner alone and then he walked her home, through the cold, holding hands, talking and kissing. She knew that he would be leaving the next day. He told her that he needed to go home to see his parents and make decisions about what he wanted to do now.

“I love you Simon and hope that you return to me soon.”

The next day he wanted to say goodbye but couldn’t bring himself to do more than watch her through the window. He still wasn’t sure he was doing the right thing. He knew it was expected that he would one day take his father’s place as leader of the fae people but Finn didn’t know if he could give up the love he felt for Maggie. He felt pain at leaving her and reluctantly he stepped into the forest and was enveloped by the magic that brought him home to his village. He was greeted by a warm parental embrace.

The weeks went by with Finn torn between duty to his family and dreams of life with Maggie. He spent most of his time alone, contemplating his choices. His mother, Raisa, knew she could lose him but she would accept his choices. Most fae return from their rompu saol and step into an adult role in the faerie community, some never return and others take time to decide their path. She sensed much was wrong with her young son but knew that she could not interfere as custom dictated each child choose their own path.

Meanwhile in the human world Maggie was missing ‘Simon’ fiercely. In her world only one week had passed but she kept looking out for him, hoping he’d turn up when she least expected him. He hadn’t given any inkling as to when or even if he might return but she had hopes that he would return before Christmas, in three days.

In the fae world another week passed and Finn finally knew what he was to do. He couldn’t bear to live another day without Maggie in his life. Leaving his family would be hard but he’d worked out a plan to live nearby to protect them and be with Maggie.

His parents spoke at length of their desire for him to be happy and he assured them that he had found that with Maggie. His mother and father embraced him and clung to one another as they said their goodbyes. With one last look back at his family and friends Finn stepped out of the forest to become Simon once more. He was back in Dublin and it was Christmas Eve. He had his bags packed with human clothing and money in his pockets. In his satchel was a gift for his beloved. He set off for the bakery.

The door chimes let Maggie know someone had entered the store. She felt that flutter in her stomach as she turned around to see ‘Simon’ standing there and suddenly she ran into his arms. She covered his face in kisses while covering her own in tears of joy to see her love returned.

In his hand he held a simple white box which he handed to Maggie. Inside she found a small piece of paper that read ‘I have nothing to give you for Christmas but myself. If you accept I will stay with you for the rest of our lives. All you have to say is my true name.’ She read this and flipped the paper over, finding his true name. She stepped toward him and wrapped her arms around his waist.

“I love you Maggie Byrne.”

“And I love you….Finn”

oops Wednesday, Jan 20 2010 

Why do I keep letting things get away from me?

I came to the conclusion the other day that I need to get over myself and get on with my life and become who I want.  4 years ago I was thin, 160 pounds.  I was still unhealthy due to smoking and increasily frequent bouts of bronchitis that would eventually nearly kill me.  I knew I had to quit smoking because the effects on my health were not worth it.  I quit and FINALLY I could breathe and start living.  One of the proudest things I did was push a stroller all over the zoo for an entire day without getting winded.  I was thrilled I could do that and feel good while doing it.  Then the pounds started to pack on and I became complacent, a state of mind that I’ve remained okay with until this week.  I realized that much like the smoking my weight has been holding me back from living.  I’m still unhealthy and only I can change that.  Guess what?  I’m ready so bring it on.

Monday Monday, Jan 11 2010 

So I blogged yesterday but for whatever reason it did not post to the blog.  I’ll count it as a post anyway because I typed it up and everything and really it was rather dull so you didn’t miss a thing.

Yesterday instead of doing typical exercise I danced.  I was cleaning house with my mp3 player and just danced through it all.  I even got my heart rate up and sweating while dancing as I did the dishes.  This week is going to be madness with work as it’s the end of my pay period and I’m behind so I have to attempt to play catch up.  I am already looking forward to the weekend.  I am exhausted at 9 am.  I do not think I got enough sleep which is never a good sign.

Plan. Saturday, Jan 9 2010 

I sat down tonight to make a list of things that I think will serve to make me successful in my weight loss journey.  I have come up with the following ten things:

  1. Exercise every other day
  2. Meal planning
  3. limit my portions
  4. provide healthier snacks for myself.
  5. weigh myself every Friday morning using the wii for now but get a real scale ASAP
  6. take my measurements on the 1st of every month and record them on my computer graph
  7. take progress pictures on the 1st of every month
  8. sleep better
  9. do not eat my feelings.
  10. blog/vlog/journal every day

I am hopeful that this plan will see me through the next two or three months at which time I will reassess.

I think over the next week or so I will try to come up with some more lists such as things I want to do when I get to goal and things I want to have at goal.

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